I have self conscious.

Life sucks when you are surrounded with a bunch of judgemental people.Ya they are good at nothing but judging. Hate to be thought of as a flirt when people just overuse the word flirt everywhere when they don't even check up on the dictionary of the definition of flirt. Flirt refers to a person who plays at love. Who does not have serious intentions on going for a relationship but they just make you fall in love with em or merely feel that theyre attractive then break your hearts those are the losers. Flirting doesn't refers to having a pure conversation with the opposite gender which the world thinks. Girls gossip behind each others back & call another girl a flirt not because the victim is really one, however the losers are just jealous. This is one of the psychology facts. So when i talk to boys, they call me a flirt. when i ignore them, they call me some attitude bitch. omg wtf is wrong? Then what you wanttttttttttttttt.For god's sake i don't fall in love with every guy i talk to, its just a bloody convo. so you judge me by how i act. erm okay? you know what? Bad inferential skills you have i bet. Remember, you know my name, you believe what you see, but you don't know my story so stop accusing me or acting like some ill mannered child talking behind my back. So overall, you know me, but youre not me. So actually you know nothing about me, you know my name and those revealed info, thats all. so stop crapping bitchassss! burnnnnnnn.

Sometimes i don't understand myself, if i don't share my problems with someone else, i feel so uncomfortable deep inside my heart but at the same time i don't want people to think that i'm weak & everything. I don't wanna be ordinary, how boring? Smile to tell others youre strong. Fel, you did it:) 

Tomorrow will be a better day for me!

Priorities.

 

So whats up guys! I've been having alot of fun lately esp my batam camp. I can't find any other words to describe the camp other than AWESOME.Overall, my class really bonded together. Okay bfr my camp i was still worrying about dad cus nobody will be home to takecare and accompany him, cus me & mum will be overseas. Dad was doing well throughout the 2 days when i was away, & he fetched me from school aft my camp how sweet. hehe. Really miss facil kelvin even though it has passed many days aft this camp.Well, He really changed our class. I mean in a way that he thought us many values that is able to help us in our future. Now, about the hotel. Gosh it was one of the best hotel i ever stayed in. Damn. The freezing aircon freeze me througout the night man. didn't expect 16 degrees to be that cold. & I think i gained weight AGN. Aft the camp cus aft dinner we return to our room & 2 hours later we start eating cup noodles. But it wasn't because i was hungry. I just wanted to finish em so that i don't have to bring home. Yknow carrying a heavy bag home RIGHT AFT CAMP WHEN YOURE SO BLOODY TIRED, SUCKS. Yes. hahahaha. next, the game. I think the games were more of teamwork and stuffs. So first game was Mine fields. omg i went over to the other teams & shouted like mad just to distract the blindfolded players.hahahahaha.next was paintballs, I didn't even hit one! the gun was freaking heavy and hard to use, it was a M16 if i am not wrong.. but i find it really cool as i saw bullets firing straight. cool. the teamwork one. One of the most pekcek games!!! haha!! Treasure hunt was a burning session. you just stand under the scorching sun & let your skin burn burn burn. Hmm, yup i became kinda tanned aft this camp. Shall keep away from e sun. Aft camp, it was immediately a school day. So everyone lay their heads on the tables during class, but the teachers didn't said a word. How nice! Even vp says "hey guys i know youre tired, but pls hang on & absorb whatever you can alright." hahahaha. I felt really hyper during morning classes, but i immediately feel like i neeed to sleep BADLY right after recess.:[ thursday & friday was just a normal schooling day anyw. 

  

These picture are taken last year during our volleyball c & bgirls 2011camp @ uss!! It was a really memorable camp. Love my vbgs :) xoxo.
 okie camp photos will be posted on e next post.

Game is over.

Hello my dear readers, how is everyone doing? 

alright urgh, god damn it, english test tmrw. I've never ever do well for my
EL common test. For the previous editing test ive got 1/10. but actually, its not because of my language or whatsoever, but its because i didn't read the freaking instructions. omg. fail. ok hahaha rmb to read instructions ok everybody!! hahahaha.okie I think my 6th sense is really amazing. okay these few days whatever that i think of happens. omg creepy. hahaha. anyw, i get very jealous easily so don't mess with me haha ok jk.okie gotta wake up really early tomorrow for school, feel so reluctant. Dying to graduate from school already. hahaha i hope 2 years will pass in a blink of an eye. Btw school's crosscountry is this friday! @ the same time, its bro's birthday too!! okay whatshould i get  for him, hmm any idea?. hahaha. feel free to leave me a tag. ciaos readers!! many love.

It has been 2 days since pb's birthday.Hi thr pb, so, its really time to let go. Since things weren't meant to be together, whats the point of forcing, It just hurts even more. isnt it? ok. so, it might take sometime for me to completely forget someone who gave me so much to remember. I really need time so freaking badly.aAnyway, hope you'll do well for your o's, hope everything goes well for you also :) I Never once succeeded in my crazy plans just to get to know you better. But, it was all worth remembering them.Most importantly, I wish that you'll be happy everyday, rain or shine, your smile never goes away. Thank you for everything still. hahaha.Happy Birthday & may all your wishes come true. God bless. Chapter17 ends here.

On the verge of falling.

whatsup readers. As usual, there's school. hmm training tmrw, yes! Can finally do my ic tmrw. okie no tuition for me today cus teacher is unavailable in e night. Having problems with the chapter: Logarithm. Who's gonna help me nobody but myself. Shopping will nevr be enough for me becus everything aruond me catches my attention so easily. okay feeling happy today. Couldn't stop coughing during remedial, it just goes on and on. Need to visit the doctor again, I don't seem to be recovering what the heck's wrong with me? Ss test today was okay. God damn it, i wrote really alot, i hoep whatever i wrote is relevant and not out of point, hope they aren't crap. Didn't revise for Dnt test becus i simply had no time. Gonna complete dnt work tmrw & also chinese. Sometimes i really hope these endless quarrels don't even exist, I wish everybody is happy around me.I swear people around keep snatching away things from me. I get very upset when people don't appreciate how much i try to keep them. Constantly telling myself to stay strong everytime i face an obstacle, Yes i did it. I never fail to stand up on two feet & face this cruel world but how much longer can i hold on. 

I don't want anyone else to have you. I'm selfish. But who cares. Thats because i really like you.

My seniors.

 hey thr!! Its international kissing day, are you even aware of that?! Haha!! I bet not!! So the latest news thats going around in singapore is aaron tan versus steven lim? hahahaha whatajoke. Its really funny how the society has become nowadays. Really. hahaha. Just 8 more days to valentines day, has anyone asked you guys out so far? Personally i think that i would rather stay home than going out with someone i don't like on valentines. As usual, aft every sunday comes monday, which is the day i always dread to come, Yes stupid school day. Every monday is like a fighting a new war.& all these wars will never come to an end. Not forgetting that ive training tmrw, I have new little juniors. Hahahahahahaahaha which makes me more looking forward to every training, to see how my new juniors gonna slowly pick up skills & become a better game player.

 However the saddest part is that my lovely seniors are leaving the team & focus on their o's & n's already. I will never forget this team i have. Remember these? when we first came in, we didn't knew each other, but seniors really had alot of patience in teaching us the basics, Without them, there won't be us in this team seriously,next, how we celebrated our countdown to 2012 night @scape, It was REALLY the best day ever, thirdly, Having meals together aft every training during the holidays, every gathering we had, was always memorable. The trip to wild wild wet , the trip to uss with the whole team, rmb the camp in school, everyone didnt wanted to go to bed even aft playing for the whole feaking day. & lastly, How we fought together as one. Hope to reunite again as a team in future, i really wish. Thanks for everything :) xx.

Don't admit defeat just because you lost once, learn from your mistakes, & win for the next.

Get well soon.

hi ppl on earth so apparently i didn't went to school today cus i'm down with fever flu & cough. probably because of the weather changes these few days. Alright just revised thro my amaths. My ic registration was screwed so now ive to go atw to ica to register with the crowd. gosh. Mdm lim was really helpful so actually, yeah i don't rly blame her for notifying me late. anyway, i just missed geog test today. tmrw will be amaths test really gta prepare for it. & really appreciate those who had wished me to get well soon. ahyes, so sweet aren't they. The weather just now freaked me out. okay the chinese new year decorations outside my house were all destroyed thanks to mr big wind hahahaha. my house was in a chaos just now, everything was flying everywhere, & the worst is that i had to overcome my fear of the "woooooooooo-ing" sounds coming frm the wind outside thro the tiny holes of my window. I tried sealing up the holes but it didn't help much. So here i am using my computer, & at the same time studying my work. I just had my medication so i guess i'm gonna feel drowsy later on. shall take a nap bfr tuition. gna have 4 hours of tuition sincei didn't went to school. alright, bad weather day, bad day, one good thing, i didn't went school. ohyes. hahaha. alright ciao!


not forgetting that today is 2nd of february, 16 more days!!

Its a brand new start. Give it all youve got. Tell yourself that he's gonna be the last that you will ever sacrifice for. The first one whos gonna hurt you and not leave& The last one to love you, forever. 

Keep smiling.

okay so hi there. Its been roughly around 1 year since i last blog right? i guess. So okay whats up recently? As usual school, & also regretted not enjoying to the fullest excluding the countdown night with my girls at scape during the holidays. The next holiday is coming soon? what the heck, time flies for you not me. I'm currently sick okay,both mummy and daddy has been wanting to bring me to visit the doctor however, due to my tight schedules, i rejected them like tons of times, & finally today!! I got to go home early to rest, i'm suppose to study for my geog test tmrw, but here i am updating my blog. Alright, wondering if i should attend school tmrw, If i don't i'm sure gonna miss alot & alot of lessons. But I am really very ill, so now what? okay decide later. hahahaha.Amaths test on friday, & i have yet to start revising "seriously" I catch no balls for the logarithm chapter. That chapter is really annoying. The concept, is just way to difficult for me to understand. Hahahaha I need more time, more practice, & i'm sure i can do it. 17 days to his birthday, I know i can't be there tgt with him to celebrate it, but still i'm so looking forward to our next convo. xx.

expect less.

okie hi readers! It has been a rly long time since i last updated my blog. Hehehe. I feel lazy. Hahaha. How have i been? Fine. Hehehe. I feel rly stress because my exams are around the corner! 29september will be the paper i fear most, English paper, I rly hope i will successfully promote. So for now, i should push my troubles & problems aside, & rly focus on my studies! I ought to prepare myself for the worst earlier. okie, I can barely enjoy my september holidays actually, just 1 short week, how the hell am i suppose to catch up with my work. I have a pile of holiday homework to be done! Goddamn.hehee. i'll be tonning tmrw night just to complete my homework & catch up with the topics that im unsure of & also revise on my history etc. Its gna be a super long day tmrw! Gna get my shoes & maybe look for dex & co.@ ryan's chalet, start work in the night! Alright, best of luck to those taking their n's!! keke! My phone needs to be hospitalized IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL. The functions always go haywire. omggg. 
okay! Bye for now!! :D

Neglected my blog, sorry readers! Kay just a short update on recently what ive been doing, upcoming events etc. Recently so many test,Just finish maths & English test just few days ago, sparcle night is coming this friday. okay, realise no matter how much i sleep, I'm always feeling tired. It sucks. My tortise died just 2days ago, I'm still thinking bout it. Hope that it'll rest in peace :) I still gotta do remedial's summary. urgh, srsly tired, don't have the mood to do leh. Just bs & audi, as usual. okay, watching anime. Made pancake & brownies today, the brownies were awesome but not the pancake, it was kinda tasteless. LOL. Not my fail cooking but the fail recipe. hahaha. okay, i shall end my post here. Bye all, do leave some tags/comments. appreciate em alot :] ciaos!:D

What we gonna be.

Heyyy:D I've lost weight, but i didn't grow in terms of height AT ALL. Shag. I guess i'm not growing cuz i've been sleeping pretty late recently. okay, so yeah, gonna turn in early frm tdy onwards! Okie, spend half my day @ ccab. Hot max. But there were so many activities gng on!! :D Had lunch over @ Mr. Prata. Met up with bro,mark, heidi, baoyu & bus to amk to meet others! The bus trip was friggin long! okay, saw evelyn & anna over there :D Headed home around 2pm, can't take it, the scorching sun is burning. Anna stayed, heidi & baoyu went home while evelyn accompanied me atw till 6 till julia came although she ton the previous day! Bet she's rly exhausted! Thanks evelyn!! :D We chatted alot, we shared alot :) Had fries omg so fattening, furthermore i ate alot kay. hahah. I didn't wanted to waste food! Haha!! arnd 7, took 169 frm amk atw to yishun with julia while evelyn went to her couz house nearby! The bus trip was along super long! I couldn't take it, my eyelids were bout to close!! So i fell asleep in the bus!! 50mins trip! Had dinner @ grandmother's place & aft that watched " chicken little" & off home :D Hehe. Alot of homework this weekend! Might be meeting up haz, timothy & co. to get things done so that we can enjoy youth day on monday! Hahaha. okayokay, byebye for now!!:D

Just a dream.

heeyyyy:D
Thanks heidi for helping me with my bio work :D Hahaha. Finally can worry less bout that work. Hahaha. Okie,accompanied her to get her itouch repaired today @ tamp :) Julia came meeting me aft that, took 39 atw, heidi alighted & went home, While julia & me headed to grandmother's place :D As usual there was a variety of nice food there for dinner :D keke. watching anime now :D End here, Byebye!:D

So turn off when i see you.

Hello :D met up with teammates @ cp tdy, then off to potong pasir, the train was friggin crowded. Hahaha. But it was fun :D As soon as we alighted, we headed to the mac located near potong pasir cc. hhahaha. Chatted for like 10mins? haaha. Then gave coach a call, he say he waiting for us already, so we left mac & meet him. He then lead us to cedar girls sec. we walk thro many bungalows, it was super tiring!! Long walk kayyy ._. There was no bus provided :( We had fun during the matches although we lost. Hahaha. After our match, we went to nex tgt with coach to have our lunch. ohmygod, the food @ the food court is so expensive!! Hahahah. Econ sell things like so much cheaper :D Hahaha. okayokay, tmrw last training, & wait till school reopen, it'll be our very first match of northzone. Rly hope to go in to the finals, Just gotta work hard for this last time!!:D Hahaha,okie,end my post here!! Byebye:D

Limited time,

Hey!!!!!:D Nothing much, training as usual! Headed off to paya lebar methodist girls secondary school today aft training for match. Hahaha. Won :D Hahaha. I had alot of fun. hahahaha. Esp the part where I & heidi make fun bout animals and ourselves hahaha. My bottle cap thingy fell into the bush, but thanks to rebecca, i could get it back:D Hehehe. okay, otw home was fun too. hahaha. Meeting heidi & karyn tmrw to study & start on our holiday homework, so last minute. Hahaha. Wednesday, we'll have to head to potong pasir ourselves to meet coach & then after head to cedar girls sec sch for a match too :) Will be meeting teammates @ sk in the early morning!!! I bet it'll be fun hahaha. alright, shall end my post here, byebye:D

Sometimes I dontknow who turn to when I feel like I need to talk to someone.

Helloooooooo:D

Met up with karyn today, headed to downtown. Didn't expect that we couldn't get our clothes thr:( So didn't buy em. Mac for lunch, & off to whitesands to check if we could get what we wanted thr. Still...no. So in the end, karyn went off early becuz she had other stuffs to do. While i waited for julia, waited for bus 89 frm whitesands to downtown, it took a damn long time kay. Finally bus came, guess what? The bus driver told on the passengers who were waiting for bus 89 to not board the bus & told all the passengers in the bus to alight. I had no clue what was happening. Then Julia tweeted me, told me that another bus 89 broke down @ highway? Wtf is wrong with all the bus 89 today?! Hmm, waited for julia pretty long @ downtown bus stop, i was eating my phone battery as i play games to kill time. Hahaha. Finally julia got here, there's this meet & greet session @ downtown with elson soh. Not rly famous i guess? But the company ppl gave me this flyer & said that i must cut the voucher out & go to their office @ aljunied to claim this free ticket to elson soh's concert. I was like, HUH. Then i started pondering whether to go ornot. Hahaha. Went to orchard & YES. Got my clothes :D Hhahaha.My money keep fly non stop. I must cut down my money on food like srsly. Hahahaha. okay, Had alot of fruits tdy @ grandmother's place , had alot of fun with julia @ thr too :D Hahhaha. Ice age, stay home saturday movie was awesome. Hahah. So much humour. Haha. Okay, im watching anime now & also doing my homework. Last minute homework, they rly suck big time. Okay, i shall do it tmrw since its a free day for me!! Keke. Ciaos!!!:D

Best of the best.

Hellooooo :D Awesome day with karyn & peishan tdy :D We went shopping @ many places. @ first downtown, wanted to get our bags. But the shop wasn't open yet. So we headed to whitesands & train to somerset. Went to cineleisure, Hahaha. I think its my first time? Haha. sooooo amaze by the things sold there, but they surely cost a bomb. okay, off to scape. Had my lunch thr, I had MAC. wooooooooooooooooooo:D went to fareast after my meal. Got a top :D Karyn got smth sweeet too :) Peishan didn't bought anyt. tdy :( She went off so early!! Hahaha. After shopping @ fareast, we all headed to plaza sing. while peishan went off cuz she had to go to the doctor to check her injury & i hope she'll recover realllllllll sooon!!:D Got my bottle & off to bugis! Hahahaha, happen to saw annabella shopping @ bugis street too. Coincidence. Haha. Its been a long time since i last met up with her! Hahaha.Finally, finish shopping, got some nice clothes of course! hahaha. I don't like gng home empty handed! Hahah. I spent like $50 tdy, hahah. Cuz all the clothes i bought were pretty cheap. Hahaha. finally done with shopping, back to pasir ris. Had my dinner with karyn, once again, GOOD FOOD. Hahaha. I'm always having good food during meals when im out with karyn, hehe. Off home, i fell asleep while watching my anime. Haahaha. kay, four way match tmrw!! I heard that there's no lunch ? Furthermore, there's no replacement for me, thats worse!! Kao. okie, im gng to bed already, goodnight!!:D byebye!!:D
I want things to be the way like it was in my dream.

I can't stand you.

Hi all :D Match agnst peicai sec tdy! Uncle had difficulty finding the school but @ last we still got to our destination. Worse, we got thr when i was just about to fall asleep, cuz i thought the bus uncle would take a longer time to find his way. Hhahaha. But i was wrong. Hahaha. we won peicai:D Was fun :) Headed to training after lunch with team mates, so awesome. hahaha. Training was quite slacking cuz coach tdy didn't give me alot of work to do. He expected less cuz im injured! Hahaha. Shopping tmrw with karyn & peishan @ town area. Hehehe. okay, shall go watch anime already, byebye!!! :D

Can't afford to lose? Thats bad.

F-U-N.

Hi readers, hve not been updating blogger. Hahhaha, Yessss cuz im lazy, & im always tired. Hahaha. Lack of sleep :/ Celebrated hx birthday ystd!! It was a successful surprise!!:D HappyBirthday hw for today!! Went to wild wild wet today with karyn,heidi,jessie, adeline,peishan & caryl!! hehe. So fun :D It was my first attempt on the slide up. Go on this like 4 times, all with karyn :D Thanks karyn for holding me @ the tsunami cuz i was too short to go atw to 1.8m. Hahaha. I Had really alot of fun :D I like the confession talk we had between ourselves. I like it so much even though it was only the three of us, Me, adeline & peishan. I love h2h talks. Theyre so awesome. Im having intensive volleyball training this june holiday. Guess today is the best day of my holiday.♥ Hahaha. okay meet up with karyn, heidi & caryl this morning @ wp & went to downtown afterwards.meet up with peishan & then adeline :) Had breakfast tgt @ mac. Yummy :D Hehe. Was so excited kay!! Bought our admission tickets & went into www!!:D It was so damn fun!!!!!!! Hahahaaha. Played shiok river the most cuz thats the most relaxing one. Hahaha. Tsunami was fun but karyn was doing all the work cuz she was the only one who could grab all of us without a float hahaha. Played frm 11.30 atw till 7!! All of us except peishan had sunburn!! Hahaha!! We all made new friends with the lifeguards thr & ofcuz other strangers too. Hahaha. A pity we all couldn't see the ularlah tgt. cuz there were 7 of us, but they only allow 6 for each float. Hahaha. My throat hurts alot now cuz i scream alot @ the slide up. I also injured myself on my knee on the god-damn rough floor @ shiok river :[ Its a few cuts only, but its rly painful. Peishan also suffered many cuts. Takecare!! Hope her wounds will heal soon!! & Ofcuz pray for mine too :)
If its not your problem, then stay the hell out of this.
People who loves h2h talks are those who has alot alot of problems. But they kept it to themselves all this time. As time goes by, things change. Not a lil, but it changes drastically. Sometimes when people treat you too good, you tend to rely on them too much, till you rly can't imagine how sucky life would be without em.


Yawns, Im tired. Hahaha. Rly exhausted!! Goodnight for now! Byebye!!:D

Sometimes, when a person means that much to you, not even the truth can change your mind about anything.

Hello all :D Have not been posting recently :) Hahaha. cuz my trainings make me feel so tired :/ Haha. okay, its a free day tdy :D So we planned a birthday surprise for Hongwei :) Success!!!!!!!!!:DD Hahaha, @ least we can all celebrate his birthday tgt bfr he leaves for overseas!! Hahaha. okayokay, uploading the pixsss nao on fb:] The cake wasn't nice ._. So regret. Hahaha. Met heidi & baoyu first, then off to meet pingying,sam & ny :] took many pictures, Hahhaha. Had a hard time gng to RM to meet em. When we want a bus, the bus not here, cab so many, then when we were looking for a cab, no cabs wanna come. In the end,bus came, uncle say bus never go RM. Wth. Finally got a cab, uncle dontknow how to go to our destination. Hahaha. Went to RM aft celebrating@ bbc for dinner ,but it was too late fr dinner, so i skipped it ;)Intensive training AGN tmrw, frm 9am-4pm including breaks :] kkay, shall end my post here:) Bye all :D Photos will be uploaded tmrw!

#Beginning.

Back then.

Annyeong!:D Good day tdy:D I finally bought myself an iphone, muhahahah. Went to school with baoyu & nicolette dad :D Nicolette left fr korea tdy :( Miss her so much, & hope she'll get me smth nice when she returns :DD Hahaha. Rotted @ home with my computer during the whole afternoon :D Hahaha. Kay, my ex phone's LCD totally crashed. Blackout already but still can be used. Hhahaha. But the screen is spoil, so i can only use it as a mp3 player i guess! Hahahaha. Chionging the episodes of bleach cuz ive not been watching em fr quite some time already, lack behind. Hahaha. Shopping tmrw with julia :D Ah, so miss the times, finally we can go out shopping agn!! :D Alright, gna watch finish an episode bfr i head to bed & start installing stuffs into my iphone tmrw!! MBLAQ came to SG tdy :D Hahaha,but i didn't went to airport to see them. Hahaha, cuz im sure it'll be extremely crowded. Match agnst presbyterian high this coming sunday @ shuqun sec!! Everyone lost their skills, so it'll be very hard fr us to perform well on that day._. Luckily its VAS, & not north zone. Hhahaha. okie, Shall end my post here, byebye!!:D


When people say "i understand how you feel", I would wanna give them a tap on the shoulder & tell them, you will never know how i feel. People faces similar situations, However, they don't feel the same thing actually. Some feel pain, some feel sad, some feel angry, some happy & some feels as usual as if nothing had tooked place. Just wish someone was there to hug you & tell you everything's gna be okay, & gives a sweet smile.
#Lovely.